Wednesday, April 15, 2009

I like my job, but....

There are just days that I feel completely seperated from everyone else at work. I have a very special situation; I work FOR the Sheriff's Office, but I work IN the local elementary schools. I do NOTHING with the Sheriff's Office, other than drive a patrol car and wear a uniform bearing it's name. I teach the drug education program, which I love, but I'm not a teacher. I am a sworn deputy sheriff, but I often feel (and on occasion have heard others say!) that we "school deputies" aren't real deputies. So where do I fit in? The truth: I don't. So most of the time I feel very much alone. Don't get me wrong; most people at the schools AND at the Sheriff's Office are very kind and usually friendly enough, but it's more of the friendly that you'd be to someone you meet on the street in passing.

Is it time for me to move on, or am I just going through yet another pregnancy-induced down spell? Who knows. At any rate, I'm not acting on the feelings....one thing I've learned in years past is that you NEVER make major decisions when you're pregnant!

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