If you've never heard Katy Perry sing, you're missing out; my most current favorite is Firework. However, today, and in days past lately, I feel that Hot and Cold is so much more "me".
"You change yourmind like a girl changes clothes
Yeah, you PMS like a girl I would know.
Yeah, you always think, always speak cryptically;
I should know that you're no good for me.
'Cause you're hot then you're cold, You're yes then you're no.
You're in and you're out, You're up and you're down;
You're wrong when it's right, It's black and it's white.
We fight, we break up, We kiss, we make up.
You, you don't really wanna stay, no.
You, but you don't really wanna go, oh.
'Cause you're hot then you're cold,You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out, You're up and you're down
We used to be just like twins, so in sync;
The same energy now's a dead battery.
Used to laugh 'bout nothing, Now you're plain boring
I should know That you're not gonna change."
It goes on, but you get the idea. This has become me. It doesn't matter what I say or feel one day, or even one minute, because the next is different. So completely different that it's scary and sad. I live on this up and down rollercoaster that leaves me not knowing if I'm laughing (or at least smiling) or crying from minute to minute during every day. Yesterday I was excited because I planned to get up and cook breakfast for my family - pancakes and bacon, and before the meal was cooked, I was so sick and so down that I couldn't eat it.
I hate feeling this way. I'm sure that it's completely normal - or at least as normal as things can be in this kind of situation. But I hate it. Like I hate a lot of things lately.
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