It's been a little more than a month now since leaving my law enforcement family. Actually though, I can't really say that I saw Kershaw County as my LE family. It was very different than when I was with the sheriff's office in Baldwin County; there, it was a comradery, a sense of belonging, an all-for-one attitude. Not that everyone always got along - far from it. But when the need was there, we all came together. That hasn't been the case here. It's actually been kind of sad for me. I think it's because of the election here, and how difficult it's been for everyone. I'm glad it's all over; I hope that the people there now can begin to form those bonds that I know from past experience.
Anyway, all of that said, it's been a month now. And I don't miss it. I'm not sure my heart was in it here...but I know it's in what I'm doing now. I LOVE what I'm doing now. Even on those days when it's wild, and kids are screaming and fighting and running all over the place, even when I'm trying desperately to entertain kids and dry tears and just not feeling like I'm doing a good job....even then, I love it. Maybe because I know that I'm supposed to be doing this. Maybe because I know I'm not missing those small but important moments with my own children. Maybe because I just enjoy it. In any case, I'm thankful that I'm doing what I am.
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