Sleep is NOT overrated!

Let's face it; I am a person who is extra tired.I fall asleep at the drop of a hat - in cars, while reading, during movies. And my husband recognizes this. So every morning that it's possible, he gets the kids downstairs and lets me sleep in for as long as I can. Isn't that kind? I know it's much appreciated on my end. I wish I could reciprocate and say "I'll get them one day and you get them the next," but I'm so tired that I know I need the extra sleep, and so does he; and for that I am very grateful. This is just one of those little things that he does for me while I've been sick that are helpful to me, and I want to make sure that I can always remember it. And if I'm not around to remember, then I want him to know that I did.

Family Home Evening, No TV Wednesday, and tons of other things that I'm sure make me weird

In our church, we have set aside, worldwide, Monday as Family Night; it is a evening that families spend quality time together, learning about each other and about important topics that the family feels are vital. There is no set routine or schedule for family night, and each differs hugely from family to family. Now I must admit the bad part; we are terrible at having family night. My intentions are great, but you know what they say about good intentions, right? The road to hell is paved with good intentions. So, I plan to do better. We must. Our family needs it badly.

"No TV Wednesday" is my kooky idea. How often do the kids come in from school and the TV gets turned on and the fight begins? One wants to watch one thing, the other wants to watch something else, the baby wants to watch mickey mouse. Then there's homework to juggle in between favorite shows, which turns into a battle between mom and kids, and I'm just tired of it! So for one day a week, we're not going to fight the fight. We're going to do homework in silence and leave the TV off afterwards as well. We'll spend the evening doing family stuff; board games, books, taking walks, riding bikes (I'm hoping to get my own bike really soon), etc.

I mean, people survived before TV's, right? No reason not to give it a try again!

Had a bad day...

(as that song rolls through my head.....)

Well, not really bad, just down. Tomorrow is supposed to be this magical day, three weeks post-radiation, and I'm supposed to suddenly feel better. But today I'm so tired that my bones ache. I can't imagine tomorrow being so different. The radiation tech told me that three weeks after radiation I'd just wake up one day and feel better, and I believed her; what I didn't take into account is that I still have cancer. It hasn't gone away. Heck, we don't even know if the radiation did anything at all (aside from making me tired to begin with). So while I might be over the side affects of the radiation, I'm still tired, I still hurt, and I'm still sick (and I'm still freezing). And the realization of that has me a bit down. I'm sure you're thinking, "How didn't you know those things?" Ok, so I didn't forget I had cancer. But I've been building myself up to feel so much better at three weeks post radiation that I just let myself think that I'd feel ALL better.

I'm also frustrated today over my lack of independence. I needed to go to the school today as a last minute thing, and while I made it there, it was in a round about way. I definitely took my ability to just jump in the van and go on my own, at a moments notice, for granted.

But, I'm trying hard to make the most of being here at home each day. I did all the laundry. I changed sheets and made beds. I cleaned the laundry room. Tomorrow my goal is to get my bathroom clean and organized. One day at a time, right? Maybe tomorrow will be the magical day.